Stay here for a while. Where you hold my hand and I hold my breath and I fight back tears as I hold back time - from seperating us apart. Hoping that we will bump into each other and we will smile at each other and the past will be in the past and we will have grown and our perspective on life will have changed. And maybe on that day as we look at each other, smiling, we'll feel our souls inside of us smiling too. Because even though you and I didn't always get along; our souls always did have that special bond on their own. Because our souls always were absolutely madly in love. And it's so hard for me to put you into words, because I love you in ways I have never loved anyone else.
By the end of this year I want to be free of this pain, because I honestly don't know how much longer I can carry it before it crushes me into thousand pieces. I'm not saying that I don't want to love you or think of you anymore - I'm just saying that I don't want it to hurt like this forever. I want to achieve a state of peace within myself where I can accept that things are not like it used to. I love you so much it hurts, and I don't know how to get over this. I just want to be free. I just want to be happy again. Want to close my eyes to old ends, and open my heart to new beginnings.
Maybe my love scares you. I know, it's so intense. Giving you everything I have, everything I am. And maybe you have forgot my smile, because lately I haven't been smiling a lot. I have just been crying. It's a shame, I am wasting so many tears. But I forgive you. I am taking out the knife of my back and I will not hurt anyone else, no matter how much they're hurting me. I miss you. I miss every little piece of you. I am always yours.